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So, a couple of weeks ago I had a birthday. I turned 32. For some reason it bothered me. I didn't care when I turned 30. The age thing has never really bothered me. But for some reason this birthday and I didn't agree. I started thinking about it because I wasn't quite sure what the deal was.

I narrowed it down to a couple of things. For some reason the no babies thing was really getting to me. I, of course, have had my life mapped out forever...but it never quite goes the way I think it will. God likes to keep me on my toes...and oh is He teaching me so much. 10 years ago I think I thought I'd have 2 kids by now. 5 years ago I thought I'd have 1 by now. Currently-no kids.

I also have been in a strange place with jobs for the last couple of years. It's been lots of this and that...but nothing solid. I've just had this "ughh" feeling about where I am in my life. And for some reason all of these things were weighing on me on my birthday. I normally LOVE to celebrate...but not this one.

I shared with Drew that I was feeling down and sheepishly explained why. He always seems to know what to say. He understood my feelings but also went on to list all of the cool and fun things about our life and the fact that we have gotten to live and go to so many interesting places. My life is the way it is for A REASON. He definitely lifted my spirits.

I am thankful for another year. I thankful for a wonderful husband. I am thankful for all of the many blessings and lessons God has given me. I will stay focused His Promises : )